So much has come to pass since I last sat down to blog. A couple of weeks ago, I found out that my beloved mother, who has been a constant source of joy and support for me, is riddled with cancer. She’s 80 years old and has lived a full and sweet life, dedicated to loving others unconditionally, but she’s tired, and aging by the day. She still faces life with the same optimism and strength, but has resigned herself to her ultimate fate, and is at peace with her situation. I can’t imagine life without her. Everywhere I go, everything I do, reminds me of her. My focus right now is to spend as much quality time with her as possible, even if it’s just chatting on the phone. How in the world am I ever going to say goodbye?
Speaking of goodbyes…my eldest daughter has finished her Master’s Degree and has accepted a fantastic new job…in Alaska. She’s never been further away than I could drive in a couple of hours, and I will miss her and her dear husband tremendously. We usually see each other at least every couple of weeks, and I will miss our time together.
My younger daughter, her husband, and my only grandson, are in Nebraska – eight hours away, but at least drive-able. My eldest son has just moved to Chicago, and my youngest son is away at college. My empty nest is staring back at me, as I wonder how the time flew so fast.
Things change and life goes on. Loved ones move, loved ones pass away, and the rest of us are left to carry on, with only our sweet memories to help us cope with the aches in our hearts. I’m so thankful for my significant other, my muse, my love…who stands with me through it all, a strong refuge of hope and strength. He is a beacon of warmth and light, even on my darkest days, and he continually reminds me that I can make it, I’m going to be okay, and so will everyone else.
I hope I’m not over-sharing…sometimes I just want the sweet folks who read my books to know that there is a real person behind the hard-working author, and that she thinks too much, feels too much and has her challenges too. Don’t we all?
Hugs and sunshine,